I just deleted all my social media and I don’t know if I know exactly why. It doesn’t feel like we’re meant to deal with this much emotion. People falling dead , famous and otherwise, police brutality, civilian uprising. But in my little world there’s barely any unhappiness and pain. I feel incredibly lost as I think of my purpose for living, but there’s no reason to die. I am now fully preparing for civil unrest and a government collapse. The good thing is that most of the things one would do for that, are also the kind of homestead small self sufficient farming things I’ve been working towards anyway. Having a secure food supply, generating my own power etc. Plus hopefully with throngs like using solar, i can save some money too.
Is it possible that life was so easy and good for most of humanity, that our natural urge to be concerned about what’s coming over the hill makes us believe that boogie monster must be defeated. So we try to find nefarious intent in things that are just fuck ups.
Workouted pretty much first thing this morning and it felt good. Hopefully ill keep it up, i think, hell i know, it’ll be best for my mental health.
My onion and garlic bed. I went through and pulled all the weeds out and just left em on the beds. The soil seems pretty damn decent, i also spread probably too much chicken poo all over the bed most for the onions. This is my first time growing both so i have no idea what I’m doing or what’s going on. Fingers crossed.