i just realised this feeling is the same one as when my brain last broke. its psychosis. luckily im aware of it and can see it coming. i was just looking at things that would normally bring me hope or inspiration, or at least a smile. and they did not.
im pretty glad that ive seen it coming and gotten onto my antidepressant and am doing stuff because doing it myself didnt work. it worked in parts and we all continue to evolve and grow etc but fuck… i am struggling.
im very pro cannabis but i can feel that its not helping atm. which further confirms the psychosis i was leaning to, possible confirmation bias of course